That’s how long it’s been since I’ve written anything in this space.
Four hundred days that have been filled mostly with keeping kids alive and growing, working, changing jobs, and finding out more and more what it means to be the Bokma family of 5.
I have so often lamented that this space lay still for so long – it really was a place that ended up documenting so much of our ordinary, every day lives and it feel as though, for 400 days that just hasn’t happened. (Ok, who’s kidding who – even though I DID blog 400 days ago, there was another noticeable gap before that post too)
But in the last month or so there seems to be an incremental shift. One that everyone says comes. And one that every parent of young kids doesn’t believe will ever be a reality. And that is this people: the return of free time.
Now, don’t get me wrong, we’re not talking about the free time of the days of old (pre-kids), where there were hours and hours to just sleep and frolic, and go out, and stay in at whatever leisure your heart desired. No, no. Let’s not get silly. But the free time that comes back in micro-seconds. You don’t even notice it at first, but eventually, over time, as the kids get just a little bit older, and bedtime gets a little bit smoother, and the day is said and done, and you find you’re not completely exhausted, you realize, you have a few minutes with – get this – NOTHING TO DO.
And for the first few months of that, you do just that – NOTHING. Because you still can’t believe that it’s a thing, and you’re afraid that if you move, you’ll jinx it. But eventually, when it continues on a semi-regular basis, you realize that maybe just maybe you can use these minutes for something productive. Like, say, read a few pages of a book. Or exercise again. Or actually reply to an email.
And so I’ve decided that this is my attempt to take some of those minutes and see what I can do to maybe breathe some life back into this little space of mine. I’m well aware that this “free time” could be yanked away at a moment’s notice, but for now, let’s just enjoy the fact that there are more words in this post than the amount of days since I last posted.